still sad

i muz thk the person who has been giving me support...i hope its getting better...but i still doubt so...failed to ans my calls n reply my msgs for so many hrs tat is impossible she nv see her hp...still quite bad situation...and i am still sad from it...

story is we going on very well...then i see her put in a relationship in friendster...caused me heartbroken when i asked her izzit she in a relationship then she say yes n how i dunno...tat made me really really heartbroken n sad...then i replied her tat i give up wooing her n dun wan be 3rd party...then she angry...hais...guess i dunno her well yet...making me really bad...izzit i juz dun understand gals...i lost trust? maybe...cox i nv had a real successful relationship in my life..but 1st time i doubted her...n till now i still dunno the truth tat lies within...i juz need help on how to solve this before i use my last breath to do something...hope by this week will end...so even something goes wrong this sunday i will still be happy...

sry...i rarely put pics cox i am too troubled to put any...seriously i wanted to shed my tears but i juz dun hav courage to...my heart is still stoned...

today met yuyu on the way to sch n he started toking bout gals...tat made me think again but i had no choice n said bout same topic...its really so difficult to overcome it...once i hear her fav songs i juz rmb her esp today in MBW...

today spent whole day in sch...do project with ric,jun chen, kenny and zhixiang...tried to be happy thru out but nv really made it...acted stupid in front of them...even jun chen n ric asked me wat happen...i wont say it there...it would make me feel lik dropping tears so i did not n endured thru by saying tat its nth...

teacher said tat my gp had to present next week n this week is lilian's gp...made me sian cox we did project today juz to prepare this friday but seems its a waste of time so i went to eat with my mum...I FAILED TO FINISH MY FOOD TWICE TODAY! ARGH!!! Y?!!!

hais...still dwn as usual...