Sad

i am feeling really down these few days just hope noone provokes me.a msg from her kills my heart and now my heart is numb like a living dead.even seeing a chio gal also does not help at all.zhixiang tried to get me interested but i juz cant do it.i hav totally no appetitite these few days as i am still wrying and sad.hope this ordeal passes as fast as possible.i am trying many ways juz to get her to be ok again.once i thought of a way i always think of negative effects not positive.i know its my fault but u dun hav to leave me on the side like tat.i dun feel gd at all
i juz need someone to comfort me but not the way jun chen did...i dun wan any kind of lame stuffs...i hav no mood for all these...my heart feels lik being frozen in time n hav no pity for anyone...the nice chester is gone forever...i doubt anyone can melt my heart away...i hav already froze my heart for yrs since sec sch n thought finally someone touched my heart...the temperature is getting lower again..
i am even willing to die for her...i know i hav a lot of friends esp my classmates but i still dun feel its dependable on them...i hav tried many ways to divert my attention on others like doing wk but still will think if i dun do anything...
tml will be another i will stone n think too much...juz ignore me...i amy laugh or smile but its juz a sign of act...forgive me...