sad still

i really wan to go on...i dun wan to forget...opportunity..y did i not take it...it hurts when i read the entry...makes me lik out of the way...kicked aside n life moves on...y? y mus this happen? jumping to conclusions again? i dunno...am i too over conscious bout it...or i juz wry too much bout u...


Hiro: i wan to be different from others.
Ando: i wan to be a normal person
Hiro: y would u wan to be with the common pp when u can be special?

i wan to be special too...but how...life with no love is quite torturing...seeing others holding hands n hugging etc...i really miss the times when i am able to do tat...i know my class pp think i am not friendly n always keeping things to myself...u r right...i am keeping to myself which i wont say to anyone...cox it will turn out lik jun chen...its irritating...unfriendly? i can be friendly if my friends r right...seriously, i dun lik those who act cute or wanna be something except jun chen cox tat is truly his character n i believe he will change...i think i know y shikin does not wan to be with our class...sometimes i juz wan to be lik her...i feel she is to be greatly respected...

i am happy for jun chen seriously...i really believe he will change...y jokes will always be taken seriously n y facts r taken as jokes...AND STOP ALL THE RUMOURS BEHIND PP'S BACK!!! u all wan say things bout me n someone else..juz say straight at my face...if someone keeps saying behind ur back...i hav regreted many times for not thinking carefully esp recent issue...

i wan to know more gals which is my aim for end of yr...may be impossible...haha...not tat i not devoted to a gal...is i wan know more bout gals...i hav lost total control over it...

last monday i damn sad n no modd to tok bout live earth then i purposely nv wear green...now they wan me pay $2...wtf is wrong with u all...mind my language...fantastic way of getting class fund...its lik wow....i will always rmb tat sentence..."u dun need cox u got wear the green jacket" i really hated tat way of toking...i really one day will juz shout at pp face...today also make me wan to juz fan lian...but i tahan...

stupid projects!! making me not able to slp...EYE BAGS!! hais...exams r coming too...n i haven start my revision...stress!!! work r piling up...irritating...

i won a bronze medal last week out of 3 events...all fight national pp...of cox lose la...then still put msia state team...of cox lose la...but i cant believe i cant win tat stupid small guy...juz cox of his kata is longer then i lose!! wtf reason is tat!!

Chester: i am really feeling dwn after all tat has happened...i might look happy but dun judge me by juz the cover...look inside...u will understand...